Why do I feel so much confusion?
Is it only me, or could it be you?”
I feel as though I am to blame
For all this confusion being sent my way
I’m at the point where I am feeling like an interruption
If I only knew just what I’ve done
Just to help relax and ease the pain
This isn’t fair to put me through
I can’t describe what I even feel
Can’t you see what’s going on
This confusion has me hiding further inside
Streaming tears fall from my face
Leaving me in disgrace
I’m waiting patiently for you to come
But part of me knows and feels you’ll never be there
Looking out the window sill
Hoping this will unwind in my mind’s eye
I wrote this poem during a part of my life where I was very confused, nothing in my life was making sense and I was trying to write to get a handle on where I was in the scheme of things. I was having trouble communicating with my parents, and felt they didn’t understand me and weren’t trying to. The only friend I had was Chun Wing and he wasn’t available all the time. I felt very alone. I was bullied badly both emotionally and physically from kindergarten to grade twelve.